believe and shall achieve

2007-07-14T23:49:00.000-07:00

7months have passed... 7 months of thinking... i have almost came to a conclusion.. an answer.. theres lots of things running through my mind...
actally i m reluctant to write all these down..but i think i might as weel do it better then keeping it to myself
lyn what have i done wrong..
maybe its true that the first relationship never last... even until now some things just upsets me... y cant our relationship last? maybe everything is with me? rite? hmm i dunno..but i will learn... i will not follow the same mistakes
i guess i can never forgive myself...
arrr... ok i dunno wad to say liao..i m confused! maybe when i m more claim i will blog again...bye!

2007-05-18T07:33:00.000-07:00

hi!
so long never blog le...
ok hav lots n lots of stuff!!!!

but i dunno wad too say!
i m so tired...help me

2007-04-11T05:37:00.000-07:00

sam...oh tts ur name... do i know u personally?

anw! yeah thx for ur advice!!
haha yeah i mean u ppl are PERFECTLY RITE! even to me now... my A's is realli the most important thing to me now! and yeah i m seriously concentrating on my A's...

jus tt sometimes when i feel realli realli upset and i need something to venge out my pain.. i thought maybe writing in the blog might be a gd way rite? moreover... u ppl can giv me adive which i know tts wad i need for now to keep me moving n stop looking back!.. so i guess my blog is realli emo caz its the deepest feeling tt i have been hiding it everyday from everyone! so yeah.. tts y my blog so emo lor... its not tt i wan it to be... is jus tt i realli have to say my feelings out SOMEWHERE rite? and...blog might be a good choice =)

but thx for all ur advice man! i realli appreciate it! realli caz without u ppl... i might not even see the light of today and tmr...

ohoh one thing i must clarify! i m not ANGRY with her.. if she finds someone tt she realli can depend on..tt i (shd be) m happy for her..tts nothing i can do and as long as shes happy..but the pain i m feeling now...is not within my control..

ok...there... go A's
i m coming for u

2007-04-08T10:20:00.000-07:00

THAK YOU VERY MUCH WEETING AND YENLENG!!!!

u girls really help me through so many times when i m feeling like hell!!

thank you sosososo much

thanks for always spending the nite chatting with me
i really really needed it!
-gaga

2007-04-08T09:18:00.000-07:00

oh yah btw...sry to tell u this too! but ur hurting me caz u dun seems to understand at all!!!! and WHO ARE U! GROW UP! post ur real name...(and if u still wanna fake it...then stay childish forever =)
are u jealous caz i still love her so much or smt? lol

2007-04-08T09:11:00.000-07:00

YEAH... i look like a freaking kid! believing in whatever she said... nv doubting her once.. and if ur a true fren... at least tell me who u realli are! be a man and spit out ur real name... maybe we realli can be frens?

2007-04-08T09:02:00.000-07:00

hmm... sry fren... yeah yeah.. y cant .. y cant... i know i shd let go.. and i m not saying she shdnt like anyone else.. but she shouldnt betray me... get it? ah ya nvm... i dun think u understand.. yeah yeah grow up... i m stupid too...shdnt had commit so much..now its so hard to pull back...yeah say all u wan... how stupid how imature i m.. tell the whole world tt ( if u know me) ...its alright... i have to carry those words with me

i am not angry with her at all... not at all...i m jus hurt...understand? yeah its so easy to move on... ITS EASY FOR U! but not me...everyone is differnt..everyone NEEDS TIME! so STOP saying all these if the person who dun understand a think IS YOU!

2007-04-06T22:53:00.000-07:00

y did she do this to me.. its ok if u dun love me anymore.. but u dun betray me rite?
y do u wanna make life so hard for me to walk.. and u jus seems to be ok with it

'its alright... i went through it before.. its normal*...and u will be fine'

its like stabbing me in the heart and telling me 'you will be alright..'
WADs WRONG WITH U?

u know how hurt it feels when u tell me that? its like u dun care AT ALL! u jus things tt its ok to do tt caz its part of life! yeah... thx for letting me UNDERSTAND the painful side of life.. thank you soso much! =)
yeah ppl might wonder.. who is this idiot being so hurt.. u know wads the hardest part of breaking up.. is not when u know shes a bitch! its when u know she IS A REALLI SWEET AND NICE AND UNDERSTANDING girl who one day jus.......betray u and walk away with another man..its jus so hard for u to accept wad she did to u! its when u NEVER ever EXPECTED it and it jus..it jus... happens.. and your mind jus keeps thinking... why?
issit caz i did something wrong?
i didnt give her wad she wan..
caz no matter wad.. a girl so sweet and loving will NEVER do tt to the person who helped her up when she needed him the most.. i m not asking for credits..i m jus...asking for an answer.. an answer tt i know its impossible to be answered..
i m not angry with her.. i m jus confused..hurt..inferior..

what did i do wrong?
what did i do wrong that pushed her away to another man...
~gaga

2007-04-01T03:46:00.000-07:00

she told me..'maybe one day u might understand'
until today..this sentence have been in my head..understand?
understand the fact tt u dun love me anymore..or understand tt y u betrayed me? walk away with another man.. r u trying to say becaz u dun love me anymore..u can betray me? is that it? BETRAYING SOMEONE WHO LOVE U SO MUCH! WHO TOOK CARE OF YOU WHEN U NEEDED SOMEONE?! is it jus a word 'sry'? to cover up all ur selfishness tt u always claim u dun hav? living me alone with another man?
huh? u r hurt too? DO U KNOW HOW HURT I FELT?!?!?! only care abt urself and say u feel hurt too... can ur hurt be compaed to mine? CAN? tell me in the face...
laugh all u wan lyndy.. smile all u wan... think of how fortunate u are now? but look at u...look deep into u...
is this who u realli are?

2007-03-30T22:31:00.000-07:00

what should i do?
what did i do wrong?

why must the girl i love most... jus.. walk away from me

leaving all the pain..with me

i miss her so much...i feel so stupid..y cant i jus forget abt her..it breaks my heart so much..but she thinks tt its alright! so what if shes a bitch? i sitll love her.. hurt..

2007-03-29T08:05:00.000-07:00

nearly 4 months have past...

i miss her so much...

2007-02-25T02:08:00.001-08:00

btw...
SMILE :)
who are u?

2007-02-25T02:08:00.000-08:00

btw...
SMILE :)
who are u?

2007-02-25T01:49:00.000-08:00

hai...
does she know betraying me is damn painful?
i accept the fact tt maybe i wasnt the man for her... but she cannot liddat rite?

2007-02-22T03:49:00.000-08:00

ok... today i msged her again!!!
but i put my feelings into it again! hai i m SOSOSOSOSOSO stupid!
gangyi she wun come back!
gangyi shes the past!
gangyi after all these she has done to u!
GANGYI WAKE!
ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!
she wun come back...
she hates me!
i hate her!!!
(ok actually i dun)
arrrr

someone save me!

sry lyn!

2007-02-20T06:36:00.000-08:00

hmm... are u listening lyn?

2007-02-19T08:50:00.000-08:00

god...

pls take my pain away...

pls...

i m so hurt

2007-02-18T03:25:00.000-08:00

i feel so lonely today....
today is like the loneliest chinese new year i have ever had...i feel so sad with out her.. and she must be very happy today and stuff.... hai... wad more shd i say

y must u do these to me...
its ok if u dun love me anymore... but u shouldnt cheat on me rite? and until now u still lied to me... cant u jus tell me the truth... only the truth can make me feel better... i dunno if you are the her i know anymore!
i felt so cheated... i felt that our past were jus lies... i felt that u have been cheating me... i felt that i dun understand you in the end... cant u jus act single for 1 month! so that i will think u all like each other after our relationship?
do u know how hurting it is to know that u have been lying to me and until today? what hurt me most is not losing you... but doubting you... y must u be such a bitch? cant you jus understand me alittle? :'\

- its so pain... u know?

2007-02-10T09:52:00.000-08:00

only heaven knows... =')

2007-01-30T19:03:00.000-08:00

lyn..
hold my hands....
lets go through everything together...

still love u as much
-gaga

2007-01-26T06:10:00.000-08:00

曲/詞: 周杰倫 Qu/Ci: Zhou Jie Lun Music/Lyrics: Jay Chou

只剩下鋼琴陪我談了一天
Zhi sheng xia gang qin pei wo tan le yi tian
Only the piano accompanies me throughout the day

睡著的大提琴
Shui jiao de da ti qin
The sleeping cello

安靜的舊舊的
An Jing de jiu jiu de
Quiet and so old

我想你已表現的非常明白
Wo xiang ni yi biao xian de fei chang ming bai
I think you've made yourself clear

我懂我也知道
Wo dong wo ye zhi dao
I know and I'm sure

你沒有捨不得
Ni mei you she bu de
You don't regret

你說你也會難過我不相信
Ni shuo ni ye hui nan guo wo bu xiang xin
You say you're upset too, that I don't believe

牽著你陪著我也只是曾經
Qian zhe ni pei zhe wo ye zhi shi cheng jin
You being with me was in the past

希望他是真的比我還要愛你Xi
wang ta shi zhen de bi wo hai yao ai ni
I hope he loves you more than I do

我才會逼自己離開
wo cai hui bi zi ji li kai
Only then will I bring myself to leave

Chorus

你要我說多難堪
Ni yao wo shuo duo nan kan
You want me to say it, but it is awkward

我根本不想分開
Wo gen ben bu xiang fen kai
I don't even want to break up

為什麼還要我用微笑來帶過
Wei she me hai yao wo yong wei xiao lai dai guo
Why must I depend on a smile to tide me through?

我沒有這種天份
Wo mei you zhe zhong tian fen
I don't have the ability

包容你也接受他
bao rong ni ye jie shou ta
To accept both you and him

不用擔心的太多
Bu yong dan xin de tai duo
Don't worry too much

我會一直好好過
Wo hui yi zhi hao hao guo
I'll still be fine

你已經遠遠離開
Ni yi jin yuan yuan li kai
You've already gone far away

我也會慢慢走開
Wo ye hui man man zou kai
And I will slowly walk away

為什麼我連分開都遷就著你
Wei she me wo lian fen kai dou qian jiu zhe ni
Why is it that I have to accommodate you even when [we] break up?

我真的沒有天份
Wo zhen de mei you tian fen
I really don't have the ability

安靜的沒這麼快
An jing de mei zhe me kuai
Staying silent doesn't come so fast

我會學著放棄你
Wo hui xue zhe fang qi ni
I will learn to give you up

是因為我太愛你
Shi ying wei wo tai ai ni
Because I love you so much

i love u so much lyn...<3

2007-01-23T05:29:00.000-08:00

hi...
today when gyming again... yeah me all alone again caz they were all too tired by the P.E 4.8km run... but nontheless, i jus cant slack n find reasons to stop training...
and so i did...
hai.... these few days realli veri upset... i so hope a bus jus hit me n die! realli....
save me...someone

i realli missed her alot alot alot
if i have the chance to hug u again... i would tell u how sry i m...
i always wanted to tell u tt but... u jus dun have the time
...i still cant forget u...
i m not angry with u... realli... despite wad the truth is... caz i realli love u
love is abt forgiving... i nv blamed u for anthing lyn...even today...
and i jus hope u can be happy,,,even though i realli realli cant bear to see u leave but i guess tts no longer my reach... its ur decision and i respect it
no matter how hurt it is... i jus hope he treats u better than i do and u can be happy with him
dun worry abt me alright... spent more time with him k?=)
as long as ur happy lyn ... nothing wun realli matter

~ if one day u decided to come back... i will hug u n nv let go

with love
-gaga

2007-01-20T09:09:00.000-08:00

someone pls save me... pls

2007-01-20T03:06:00.000-08:00

hai...
today i feel damn sad... realli sad... its like the end of my life
anw i went gym today.. didnt train much caz i felt like vomiting when doing my workout... i feel so damn useless...
but nvm i m gonna train again tmr.. today not counted
anw this morning when i woke up... i damn sad le.. she didnt msg yst nor today... not even one!! i feel realli upset even though i tried msging her multiple times ... abt 4-5 msges today...
yeah i didnt dare to msg her much caz i may irritate her... moreover i m not close to her heart anymore.. so she has the rights to msg me or not... so i jus try to cool myself down n try not to cry... yeah so today sucks...realli...
today when i was on the way home it was raining... so i stayed under the bus shelter... it was raining realli heavily.. but i jus sat there even though the rain was pouring in. i was thinking... thinking abt the past... thinking how losuy i was,,, thinking y i lose her
hai... but somehow i felt better... it was because of the rain... at least i knew the rain is listening to me... at least i felt the rain was consoling me... i felt realli empty.. but the rain was with me... thanks rain =')
so i stayed under the shelter thinking for an hour... until my mother called and picked me up from the bustop.
i m suppose to go for tkd at tohyi now... but i lied to my father i was not feeling well... hmm but i m realli not feeling well now... i realli dowan to look at her... i m afraid i might feel even worse then now... moreover i feel realli stupid n ashamed n immature that i m so upset over this n i cant forget her.... i cant take it anymore...
i realli want her back badly... realli....

2007-01-18T08:07:00.000-08:00

LYN JIAYOU!!!!!!
dun feel stress alright?
u can do it =)

2007-01-18T04:24:00.000-08:00

hi.....
ok ... yst we srjctkd had our first jc1 to come and try out our cca... at first there is only like 5 ppl le... then we all were so sad... like y only five!!!... then 5 mins later all the ppl started coming and we ended up with 25 j1s!!!!!! and we were so happy!!
so me as a training head took over... basically i m like a 'instructor'. so i tell them wad to do n command them.... it was really the best training from the day i step into srjc... they were all veri enthu... and i see potential n them... so yst we had a successful tkd n most ppl enjoyed it...
then something happened... yst during training, our welfare head ying wei keep on nagging at me critisizing my training too tough or smt and i was like a lousy trainer head... but after the training she apologized abt her being too protective towards the j1s afraid i would scared them. but well... she said sry... btw i wasnt angry at her at all.... i mean its alright to tell me if anything is wrong.. so its ok ying wei... i m proud of u ..... u did ur job! =) oh yah... i was quite fierce to them caz i shouted at them to be serious and shout louder stuff...haha and like when i was walking around to correct them..they were SO SO SO SCARED!!!! but i didnt scold them lah... i smile at them and motivate them and slowly they jus started joking with me after break... ok to prevent misunderstanding, wad i m trying to do is to be fierce to them as an organisation so that they would take the training seriously... and yet having fun and knowing their trainner head is a nice guy and would NEVER scold them =)
ok so today... nothing special actually... i was leading a normal sch like but just a little diffrent... rmb i was determined to change?

yeah so these few WEEKS guess wad... every single day i have been eating abt 5-7 eggs a DAY!
morning i ate 1 egg at home
after flag raising i eat another egg and chicken rice with LOADS of chicken breast
-break i had 2 eggs and chicken rice with LOADS of chicken breast
-lunch i had 2 eggs and chicken rice with LOADS of chicken breast
-another break i had mixed rice with fried eggs with fried chicken
-then feeling not full enough, i had another mixed rice with onli fried chicken
=> so total i had 7 eggs 3 plates of chicken breast and 2 fried chicken
PROTEINS!!!! PROTEINS!!! i need them!!!!

and tt is my normal life every single day...
yeah my friends were like ' gangyi ur totally crazy!!!! eat so many eggs!!!'
another canoeist sad 'gangyi u SIAO ar u eat of many plates of rice... 7 everyday ar!!!(+ dinner)'

yeah... so my life... i jus try to force myself to eat even though i m sick of it...PROTEINS!!!!
so after tt... our last period we had P.E but b4 tt i went to the gym for an hour with two of my canoeists classmates...
so P.E we had 2.4km test and the 50 push-up challage...
i done all...btw my 2.4 realli bad... abt 12mins le =(((( ( LOUSY ME!!!! but i m gonna train!)
anw after my pe i went to the gym again!!!! (even though the whole world is so tired after the 2.4)
i ask the two canoeists if they wanna tag along...and guess wad...one of them were saying ' gangyi u realli siao liao ar... u wanna train until ur muscle explode issit!!! i think u over-train liao la!!!'
so i smiled back n pack my bag to the GYM.... again... haha but after a canoeist said tt i was kinda happy...caz these canoeist are SUPER DUPER LUPER FIT!!!!! so i went to the gym at 5.30 and train till 7 ALONE!!!
so today total time in the gym... 2.5hr!
btw i go to the gym every 3 times a week...

~so this is my normal life... i wanna CHANGE... i wanna CHANGE!!!! caz i cant believe i lost her... n i felt so inferior!!! i wanna change... to prove to MYSELF i can be a better person... caz i jus wan her back =') jus wan her back...
and its not onli m i changing my appearace... but also my character. =)
i realli love her alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot x1000000000000000
and i realli miss her
( i learned alot of things after we broke up)

2007-01-14T07:48:00.000-08:00

hi... yeah today is sunday,,, the worst sunday i ever had...
today we barely msged each other... i mean these few days we dun... u know i realli dunno y...either she is avoiding me or if realli she is jus too busy... but anw... both makes no diffrence, it hurts :( .... but still.. we are not couple anymore so she can choose to msg me or not... hai i think today she barely msged me 5 msges... i dunno y ...i jus kept wating for her msg... jus wait n wait... lying on the bed even thought i knew she wun msg...
anw .... today had gp tuition.... my teacher is realli nc and he tried to confort me... he is realli experienced caz he had b4 a total of 10 gf... and out of ten, 8 broke off with him... lol however now he claims tt alot of girl trying to get a peice of him... which i feel is true lah... caz he realli knows how to confort ppl...
hmm i realli dun agree with ppl saeing 'gy... u will find a better gf' i mean is a relationship realli abt perfection? if u find someone better do u jus kick the old one n get a new one? no rite... love is abt commitment... its not abt whose better amd stuff.. and if u REALLY love someone... shes perfect!
hmm....day by day i m losing hope... i m realli confused!!! i dunno wads shes thinking.... whether she still loves me anot? hai...sometimes i feel so cheated... all the promises... hmmm
but nonetheless.... SHE IS THE BEST GF and i didnt regret loving her =')
i jus regret losing her =(
tmr going gym!!!!
bb
i jus wan her back *
still love her alot ='(

.....

2007-01-13T08:23:00.000-08:00

yeah... today is saturday
so i went to the gym today to train for abt 2 hrs... this few weeks i have been training 3 times a day in gym.. still considering whether to buy protein shakes n stuff to boost my size.. realli hate the state i m in now... gonna change myself ASAP!!!!
yup...these few days is realli diffrent now... life without her is not a life... every SINGLE day i m thinking of how to improve myself... in terms of appearance, attitude and stuff...erm jus EVERYTHING abt myself... its not wrong to change for the better rite =)
so these days i realli wored veri hard...( i suppose) in terms of everything...i study harder...i go gym more often n worked realli hard! oh ya n aarons formula of training can KILL!!! but i love it... caz i wanna change! try to change my attitude...try to look out for my appearance... try to be more mature...
GRRR!!!! theres alot more i have to do in order to smile infront of the mirror :(

life is realli diffrent now... i feel so empty ... i wanna hug her badly!! i really dunno wad i shd do... i m so confused... i... dunno...wad...to....say....

i have to change! n now.. i m gonna study!!!! i can slack a sec...
so bb~
-confused gaga
-still love her lots =')

2007-01-11T10:16:00.000-08:00

"Marriage is a coming together for better or for worse, hopefully enduring, and intimate to the degree of being sacred." -William O. Douglas

"Marriage is like life in this—that it is a field of battle, and not a bed of roses." -Robert Louis Stevenson

'Love is what you've been through with somebody." -James Thurber

why don't you understand... =(

2007-01-11T08:06:00.000-08:00

i love her so much... and yet...giving my everything is not enough... its not a matter of whose fault issit anymore... i jus wan her back...

2006-04-13T07:42:00.000-07:00

HARLOO!!!!
lol okie! seems like there is 3!!!
haha anw who is vic? lol give ur name i wanna know!
ok... my blog is not dead! hai
JC!!!! makes me so busy.. how to write my blog! haha anw.. jc is realli busy n i realli dun hav the time to blog... dun even hav time to revise my work! but... jc life is realli not much diffrent from maris stella.. as in boys sch n mix sch is abt the same... not realli anything special expect for there girls(ofcs) n TONNES of gossips!! u can hear practically any kind of gossips!! gays les bitches chio bu shuai ge n stuff liddat.
join tkd in my jc.. yup it rather fun but not many jc1s joined tkd... so little people!!! then tkd like wanna colse down liddta! but nvm we will mzake it rise like an eagle AGAIN!
eh.. .. tts abt it..lol
sry my poor 3 readers for reading my short post today..
ta~ta~
love her =)

2006-02-21T10:13:00.000-08:00

HARLOOO!!!!
wow... long time never update blog le... but onli 2 ppl see onli le(shout out to lynlyn!) haha
anyway... our demo teams had a great start!!! we were on e great eastern magazine cover page...yay!! we call it e lovers edition?!?! hahaha e front page roughly depicts me kicking e board lynlyn was holding...not veri nc lar but reasonable..hee yup!! sems lyk our demo team has this realli bight future yeah!?!?!
these fews days hav been reali busy working... our boss realli wanted to kill us...how can he gave us 3 projects at 1 time but onli pay us for 1 project!?!?!?!ridiculous!!! but anw... i lyk to work in synovate though...sitting at my desk n chat with her on msn even though she was jus behind me...but must act hardworking mah!!!....staring hard on e com!!! i was realli happy working with dear dear...u know? waiting for e always late lynlyn n giving her morning kiss n our TURBO!!! holding hands together n walking along e ever so familiar street to our office... it was jus so blissful...however great times r always so fast.. sch reopens n we hav to go separate ways..no more holding hands, no more walking along e ever so familiar street... no more hugging... no more morning kisses...no more hugges...no more laughter...no more TURBO LO!!!(dear dear must be lyk 'YAY!!' now!) hai it jus seems lyk a dream... its time for us to leave, when r we going to hav such beautiful times again? sobsob... but dun worry dear dear, i know we still hav a long way 2 walk together...even though we may not hold hands together...but our hearts r always together.. =pPp
...we know we will be waiting for each other... yay!!!
erm... cough* cough* NANO!!!! i wanna get a i pod NANO.... its super cool lar!!! it was jus lyk my dream mp3... wad attracts me is becaz its slim...light..durable..n ofcs can play musics(obvious!?!)lol!! n its SEXY!!! yup i m intending to buy it with dear dear...
(to lynlyn) when i listen to e NANO, i knows tt ur not lonely caz theres NANO 2 pei u...i realli hope we buy NANO tog. k? caz i wan to know tt ur not lonely..PLS get a NANO with me dear... i will lend u $$ de!
yup this post is for u dear!!=) i hope u read it with love...
i love u so much dear!!
how much?
MORE THAN U!!! muahahaha
okie dear !
ta~ta~ (to frens too)

2006-01-15T04:23:00.000-08:00

HARLOOO!!!!
friday:
when out with lynlyn on friday...
hee veri happy on tt that..wonderful hahaha we had quite alot of fun until the movie we watched on that day.. heirloom..IT SUKS haha not scary at all lor...make me mistaken that actually i m veri brave before lyndy also tell me its not scary at all -.-''' when to eat new zealand ice-cream at far east...it was rather delicious. i had cookies-n-cream n tiramisu...then lynlyn ask me to help her choose a bracelet for a guy..i realli dunno how to choose caz i had never wear one...lol but we manage to get one though
saturday:
went to make my acount early in the morning... n was late for the interviewer briefing...i thought lynlyn would be angry wif me but instead she bought LUNCH for me..thx dear =) ..ur so nice!!! the job briefing was realli boring lor! hmm then hafway during the briefing lynlyn was realli hungry...sry lyn after that we immediately went to had dinner at bukit timah food centre...when tohyi for tkd after dinner...
hmm tkd was rather boring today.. caz need to tell juniors wad to do then ended up never train...but realli had fun AFTER the training... me n my bro train ourselves...tiring it is!!! but fun learn qite alot =) ( hope lynlyn like the ice-cream i bought for her) ...sort of insulted lynlyn today...lucky noti reminded me...sry lyn i realli realli feel bad abt that.. n pls dun ask wad i said caz i will hate myself... but i said it caz i jus wanted not protect our relationship (forgive me k?)
today:
found out that lynlyn is actually unhappy that i didnt got jealous becaz she wanted to bought bracelet for a guy( read friday)...haha but sometimes i realli get jealous lor...jus didnt want to show out n make u feel bad... hmm was quite confuse this afternoon ...not realli if i love her or not!!! love her ALOT!!! anw...its ok
kook thats it
to lynlyn: iloveu!!!
ta~ta!~

2006-01-11T19:01:00.000-08:00

HARLOOO!!!!
hmm nothing realli happened yst....
went to a job orientation with lynlyn at burlington square near town....hmm the job interview was abt 2hrs 30mins..realli bored dead!!! hee but the job was quite interesting after attending the orientation...i quite like that job but the bad thing is tt u jus need a certain lvl of skin thickness...haha oh the job is breifly abt asking ppl for surveys nearly everywhere =) yah the job where everybody hate...everybody hate surveyers!!! haha but that makes it interesting for me!!! n the pay is rather high...hehe
after the job orientation we went to hav a bite at the nearest mc donalds in bugis... had stomachache after eating Mc spicy meal UPSIZED.. hmm i wonder issit food poisoning...but lynlyn also ate the meat le!!! maybe its the bread that is poisonous?!?!or the mayo?!?! i guess my stomach is upset when i eat oily stuff at nite? ar wadever!!! guess i m fine now...ofcs after numerous trips to the toliets... vomitted 3 times..n the feeling realli suks when u vomit but u will feel better after that..n AFTER the relieve..THERE IT COMES again!!
hmm today had a little twiny pitsy problem with lynlyn but i hope she is not hurt some way or another =) .... love is so unpredictable... n as all of u knows .. i m new to those stuff so sometimes i realli get confuse...BUT IT ALWAYS ended up the same conclusion... i still love her alot!!!!.. oh well i guess thats love rite?!?! heeheehee
N tmr going out of lynlyn!!!! yeah!!yeah!!yeah!!!
okie!!!
ta~ta~

2006-01-10T05:24:00.000-08:00

HARLOOO!!!!
again!!!
hmm first thing in the morning..heard from dada that roger's sis died in a car accident...hmm roger is ok.. so the tournament trip to thailand was cancelled =( BUt its ok!!! caz at least i can still participate on the international taekwondo competition in hongkong this coming JUNE!!!
YAY!!! but kinda scared...haha
ok today was a realli boring day for me....stayed at home half-awaken sitting on the crouch n watching gozilla terrorize japan,tokyo... cant go lynlyn's hse today caz it was raining heavily n my bro caught flu!!! haiz!!! sian!!! so went back to slp.. but jus b4 going to slp... DEAR DEAR!!!! msg me!! oh man i was waiting for her to msg me hahaha ....miss her!!! realli disappointed cant go her hse today.. caz we so long havent had fun tog. as in realli ONLI TOG. !!! hahaha but i promised her i will go out wif her on friday!!! yay!! feels like punching myself to slp n when u wake up ... PHEW!!! its friday..can go out wif lynlyn!!!
today lynlyn was rather disappointed...ok actually mad,pissed wif her mon caz her mon wanted to cancel the dance contract... hmm dun angry k? angry not pretty le dear dear!!! hee
to lynlyn:
pursueing ur dreams is full of sufferings,
it is also full of overcoming it.

mom wanted to force me to a haircut..but i insisted...she say i looked like a tiger?!?! haha but i dun thing so le..maybe it is jus age-gap(DAI GOU) haha but still ended up uncut.. bluff my mother that today hari raya that barber not working...
actually i miss jc life!!! i wanna go to a jc frist 3 months!! but nvm lar caz got dear dear pei.. martin,my bestest buddy jus came back from hongkong recently..wow he became so cool.hehe took the chance to consult him with those most IN stuff..haha asked him to gime a make-over if possible!! yay! n he agreed..look in the mirror n i cn see myself so cool n HIP n future..wow!!! haha
okie!! tts for taday rather tired now!!
ta~ta~
dedicated to lynlyn:
LOVE YA!!!
hee

2006-01-08T02:28:00.000-08:00

HARLOOO!!!!
finally my personal blog(SHOO~ gr!!!)
this is my blog n its full of crap
first its dedicated to all my frens out there
YOYOYO!!!(shout out!!)
my blog is full of singlish caz my english is real bad n if u wan me to write in my best lvl of english standard....its still singlish =) so bear with it bah
Making this blog is so complicaterd n mahfan.... so many stuff to change n edit grrr... but its ok caz its for HER..lol harloo!!! (i know ur reading!!) caz u said u will !!! hmm so tired...
anw today i went out to my auntie's hse... i was forced to go there caz my auntie's mother's sister(oops!) came all the way from hongkong to singapore n shes a tei tah shi !!! so my mama went there to get her hands tortured?!?!( her hands were aching so need to be tortured) after that my mama ask my auntie's mother's sister to torture my aching back resulting from the recent tkd trainings... its suppose to be painful but it ended up so RELAXING!!! haha... me going there again!! tts for sure!!! hee then i went to the HONDA car showroom with my papa... we were identifying the car models for business reasons lar!!! then we went bedok food market to hav lunch b4 heading back home... then bubbles msg me =) ...yeah!! haha
followed by using com... toking to bubbles then make the pathetic blog of mine
okie!! thats it for today!!!
ta~ta~!!!